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“You’re bloody-well silly about books,” his father said, a definite threat in his voice. “You read till you’re bloody-well daft.” His mother came back from the kitchen: “You stand need to spend half a crown on books when you ain’t got a bit o’ shoe to your feet. And you’re a sly little swine to ’ave money in the ’ouse all that time when I’ve often bin wi’out a shillin’ ter buy some snap.”

  “I didn’t have the money here,” he explained. “I took it bit by bit to the book shop, like a Christmas club.” This was even worse, because he’d made sure that, starving or not, they hadn’t been able to get their hands on it.

  “You’d ’ave ’ad more sense to a got yoursen a pair o’ shoes,” Seaton cried. “I’ve a good mind to throw it on the bleddy fire.”

  “’E’s got no more sense than ’e was born with,” his mother said. Brian was horrified at his father’s threat, saw flames already at their work. “It’s my book,” he shouted.

  “Don’t cheek me,” Seaton said, “or you’ll be for it, my lad.”

  Brian’s tears were open, and they saw it. “I hope there’s a war on soon so’s we’re all killed,” he raved.

  “What a thing to say,” his mother said. “I don’t know where he gets it from.”

  A smack across the head from his father. “Say one more word, and I’ll show yer what I’ll do wi’ yer.”

  “Wait till I grow up,” Brian cried.

  But Seaton only said: “He’ll be a lunatic one day wi’ reading so many books.”

  He sat by the fire while they drank tea, trying to force back the sobs, difficult because he saw too easily how he had done wrong. But hatred and pity for himself surmounted this, and so he couldn’t stop. Vera passed him some tea: “Come on, it ain’t the end o’ the world.” His eyes were drawn to the book cover, where a brave man held a rapier as if he didn’t care for anyone in the world, as though nothing could ever trouble him. And if it did, the face and sword said, it would be an easy matter to fight a duel and dispose of whatever it was.

  He ate bread and jam, and went on reading. The story grafted itself to him, slowly becoming him and he becoming it, and he left behind with each second the light and noise in the house and went on wondering footsteps down into the dungeons of the Château d’lf with Edmond Dantès, following the guards and slipping invisibly into the cell, and all night long he listened to the tapping and whispers that came from the granite floor, heard the patient scraping and scratching of freedom, was shown that even dungeons and giant prisons were unable to keep men in for ever, though fourteen years was longer by four than he had so far lived: he listened to the chipping of homemade tools, and voices whispering as if from the dead, which talked of knowledge and freedom and hidden treasure on the Island of Monte Cristo.

  CHAPTER 13

  Mr. Bates was powerless to stem the tide of commotion in the classroom. With good reason the boys were excited, everyone talking to everyone else. The regular timetable dissolved as if by magic, and the map of South America—in white chalk for the coastline and brown for the long curving rib of the Andes—was being rubbed out by the prefect, who even forgot himself and shook the chalk rag in the classroom, so that brown and white dust-clouds penetrated layers of light slanting in through the windows.

  Assembly and prayers had gone by and, to the intense joy of the class, Mr. Bates stayed writing at his desk. Brian was close enough to hear the reedy turmoil of his pen and the rustle of overturned paper. What was he writing on a day like this? For whom could he be using these unique minutes? Maybe it was the best he could do while waiting to see what happened, because had he ordered the class into the hall and set them to singing hymns, they would possibly have mutinied, or acquiesced so truculently that hall-discipline would have been impossible.

  “Bosworth!” Mr. Bates cried, glancing icily at the prefect when dust settled on his coatsleeve and notepaper. “How many more times do I have to tell you to shake that thing outside?”

  But Bosworth recognized his words as a protest, not a threat. “Sorry, sir,” he said, hung the duster over the easel-lath, and went back to his seat after seeing his apology met only by a bent preoccupied head and the sound of a pen scratching across foolscap like the exploring claws of a badger.

  Anybody’d think he was writing a book. The noise rose to a climax, a sea beating against the sound-barrier of Mr. Bates’s pen, until suddenly the stream of his thought was taken in the flank: “Quiet!” he shouted. The sea didn’t fall back, for only those closest, always careful not to make much noise anyway, heard him. “WILL YOU BE QUIET!” he bawled.

  The sea-roar stopped, the waves receded, but the unbearable throb of excited unanimous conversation was replaced by a silence that paralyzed Mr. Bates’s pen. He assumed a stern expression and looked at the forty faces before him, adjusted the spectacles chafing the back of his ear: an unnecessary movement, but he could not at that particular moment keep his hands unoccupied. Every face, from four rows of ancient name-scratched desks with two boys frozen at each, converged on the focal point of his own. He knew quite definitely that each one was waiting, with their silent collective gaze, for him to tell them something—and the passing seconds assumed a pandemonic quality because he did not know what to say. He who held his class always within the bounds of discipline—though never tyrannically so—wavered because for once he could not give them their rightful due of words on a subject spreading like a thornbush through every brain.

  “I suppose you all know,” he broke out firmly at last, “that gas-masks are to be given out today?”

  A question to which no answer was needed. Everyone was relieved that he had addressed them with such satisfactory wisdom. Tension drew from each face, and he was aware of a smile growing like an apple rolling as if before wind among them.

  “Also,” he went on, easy now that a beginning had been made, “there won’t be any geography or arithmetic lesson.” The smiles became definite, and Mr. Bates thought of his half-completed letter. “Go on talking, but keep your voices down. Mr. Jones may be in soon.”

  Once more his pen scratched, disguising paper with a camouflage of ink, and slowly—like a great hoarse dynamo that has difficulty in starting—the noise of speculation grew until it reached a level that stopped Mr. Bates being aware of it.

  “I’m glad there’s a war,” Brian said to Jim Skelton. “Dad says he’ll be able to get a job if there is. Then he’ll give me a penny every Friday. As long as we aren’t gassed, though.”

  “I’m not frightened,” Jim replied, “but what about mam and dad and Maureen and Frank and the others? There’s seven of us and we can only just fit into our cellar if bombs start dropping.”

  Brian absent-mindedly tipped the viscid contents of one inkwell into another, making a black pool on the wood and almost blotting out the first carved letter of his initials. “But perhaps everybody’ll have guns,” he ventured, dabbing at the ink and wiping it on his jersey.

  “We won’t get guns,” Jim said. “Everybody’ll have to stop in their cellars. I can’t think what we’ll do.”

  “Your dad’ll have to build bunks,” Brian advised. “He’s a joiner, so it’ll be easy for him. But our house don’t have a cellar to it.”

  “You’ll go in air-raid shelters then.” No one had attended to the flowers in the window jars, and their yellow heads drooped for want of water; neither had those detailed entered the temperature or barometer readings on the graphs that stretched in coloured undulations along one wall like a mountain panorama in the geography books; it was inkwell morning and no one had filled them; and no books had been given out. Lack of timetable discipline convinced them that there was no need to be silent, to read, write, or sing, because it was marvellous, miraculous confusion, with all hoping beyond hope that disorganization had come to stay, thinking that if war was this then it wasn’t so bad after all.

  Brian’s idea of war was Napoleonic, at any rate in tactics, with barricades in every street while a gas-masked Waterloo exploded from Clifto
n Grove to Gotham Village. Moulded by an addiction to Les Misérables, he saw wagons of paving-stones and sandbag-parapets blocking Denman Street and all approaches to it, while a higher blockade sealed each main road off from the country to stop tanks. His picture showed a tin-hatted soldier with rifle and bayonet running along the cobblestones of Radford streets, while Mr. and Mrs. Skelton and all the little Skeltons gazed anxiously up from the grill of their cellar grate. Then a bomb would fall and blow up a house, grey bricks shooting into the air, now coloured grey though they had been red before the explosion. Perhaps he, too, like Marius Pontmercy would go off with a rifle (a rifle picked up from a body in the street) to the barricades and fight the Germans and kill many men, saving the Skeltons, who, in the proscenium of his mind, still looked anxiously from their cellar grate at the soldier running up the street with bayonet fixed.

  Then a container would fall—silently almost—and lay in the gutter, and after a few seconds a slit would open in its side and a yellow vapour spill out and ascend a few feet, then thickly spread. And Brian would put on his gas-mask (which miraculously appeared, for he did not have it a few seconds before) and clamp it over his face. If he saw someone without a gas-mask he would give it to him: for himself, he knew exactly what to do, which was to soak his white handkerchief in water that somehow appeared in the gutter, and lay it over his face. That would stop the mustard gas—or so Uncle Doddoe had told him.

  And hadn’t his mother said there were to be trenches on the forest, as in the last war? He saw people wearing gas-masks filing into them as twin-plane aircraft came over to drop bombs—as he had seen them blasting the slum-dump ruins of Albion Yard. Then a change of scene as enemy—German, of course—soldiers came over the green-painted railings far away and advanced through mist towards the trenches, so that conveniently and from nowhere English soldiers streamed out to repel them, and Brian somehow mixed himself up with them and killed so many Germans with the rifle he carried that he was asked to organize a schoolboy battalion, of which he would be commander-in-chief.

  “You won’t get a gas-mask.”

  Through the glass partition of the next classroom, chairs and tables moved, feet shuffled, and orders were carried out. A report was passed from a daring observer: big boxes were being heaved in from outside and laid on tables. There was a smell of rubber. “Frenchies,” someone called, “that’s what they are”—as the words Large Medium Small were shouted time after time. Brian caught the note of jubilation that swamped the class: it was after ten and would soon be playtime, so that a rush for straws and milk could commence.

  A second later he filled his underbreath mind with swearing, telling himself that he above all should have known that such freedom was too good to last: Mr. Jones walked in. Mr. Bates did not push the letter out of sight as he usually did, but left it lying on his desk and turned his chair to look at the small tight dynamite headmaster as he entered the room. There was no need to tell the boys to stop talking, for even the sea would fall silent at Mr. Jones’s shadow. He stood compact within a vacuum of silence, and Brian felt an itching behind his neck, but held his arm fast from scratching for fear of drawing notice to himself. Jim Skelton’s eye went into a winking match, but Brian did not take him up on it, seeing his lips curl up at one corner as if to smile. He’d better not make me laugh, the rotter. A lorry roared along the street and pulled up at the school door. The milk’s come, he guessed, but when he didn’t hear the clash of filled cases coming through the hall he assumed it was another load of gas-masks.

  “They weren’t very quiet,” Mr. Jones said. Brian watched his plasticine pellet: if it rolled quick, he wouldn’t hit anyone; it if rolled slow, he was bound to.

  “It’s hard to keep them quiet on a day like this,” Mr. Bates said as he casually slid the letter in his desk. Mr. Jones became sarcastic: “I feel sure you could have done better than that.”

  “They’re excited.”

  Picture-clouds of war plagued every brain, and the outposts of fear that preceded Mr. Jones as he walked among masters and boys had been neutralized by the overwhelming bomb of a question that smoked to varying shades in the hearts of boys and masters alike. “I still say there’s nothing to be excited about,” he snapped.

  When is the old bastard going? Brian wondered. Why can’t he leave us to talk, or let Mr. Bates read summat good to us? If there’s a war I hope that old bastard’s the first to cop it, with a great big bomb (the biggest bomb in the world, if it can be managed) right on to his spiteful white loaf. Or maybe a Jerry will get him with a rifle when they start sniping from chimney-pots. You never know, these days.

  “They wouldn’t be excited if they knew what war meant.”

  “Boys never know what war means,” Mr. Bates said.

  “It’s a pity they can’t be told then, and have some of this excitement drained from them.”

  Mr. Bates’s eyes gleamed, as if about to water; he smiled to stop them doing so. “There’d be no cannon-fodder for the war after the one that’s about to start if that happened.”

  Mr. Jones looked hard at him, then at the class. “Are they all here?”

  “Ten are absent.”

  “Too excited to come to school, even?” A few bold spirits began to whisper, and hisses passed from across the room like jets of escaping steam. “Silence!” he roared, his anaemic face flushing.

  There was silence.

  “What do you intend doing?” he asked Mr. Bates. “They can’t go on like this, war or no war.”

  “I’ll probably read to them.”

  Mr. Jones snorted. “Let me use your desk.” He moved aside and sat in a chair, a stack of Foundations of History rearing at the back of his head.

  “I suppose you all know that they’re giving gas-masks out today?” Mr. Jones addressed them.

  He knows bleddy-well we do.

  “Any of you know what a gas-mask is like?”

  Not yet, but we will.

  “I’ll describe one to you. A word-picture of one.” Brian remembered: the first Jerry shooting from a chimney-stack ought to put one right into his four-eyed clock. “There’s a rubber facepiece, with a celluloid frame you can see through, and to this are attached straps that you pull back over your head to hold it on. Very neat and well thought-out. Now, under the chin is what’s known as a filter. This is what you breathe through. This is what makes the poison gas harmless before it gets to your mouth and nose. Simple, isn’t it? Any questions?”

  No questions.

  “I didn’t think so. You’ve all got heads made of putty. You wouldn’t think a putty-head would need a gas-mask, but it does.” A few crawlers laughed. Mr. Jones grinned at his own joke. “All right, putty-heads, I’ve told you what a gas-mask’s made of. Now I’ll tell you what it’s for. It’s to be used in case (or should I say when?) German aeroplanes drop poison-gas bombs on Nottingham.” He paused, possibly for questions, perhaps for some reaction, but they hadn’t heard enough.

  “Anyone know what a black-out means?” No answer. “Well, putty-heads, it means that no lights of a city can be put on, that everything’s kept in complete and total darkness so that German planes flying above won’t know where they are. And at such times you’ll all have to go to bed early because there’ll be no sense playing in the streets when it’s pitch dark. And you’ll carry your gasmasks to bed with you, careful not to drop or damage them. If you do, then you’ll be in a fine fix when the bombs fall, won’t you? So you’ll take the gas-mask out of its cardboard box and place it by your bed for when the air-raid warning sounds.”

  He settled himself comfortably at the desk. All day, Brian moaned. “Of course, when they do go and you hear bombers coming over, there’ll be no need to put your gas-mask on. Only when a man comes around the streets with a klaxon do you do that, and when gas is dropped you all act very quickly—except the putty-heads, of course—and pull the masks over your faces. Naturally, if any of you have smaller brothers and sisters you’ll help them with theirs before putti
ng on your own.”

  His bloodless head turned from one side of the class to the other, and as his face passed the front, both eyes were blotted out by circles of light as big as his glasses. “Something else,” came from his mouth: “Do any of you know when poison gas was first used in a big battle?”

  One hand did: “In the Great War.”

  “Ah, so you’re not all putty-heads. Yes, quite right. Fifty thousand Frenchmen (and many British) were gassed by an afternoon breeze at Ypres. All the troops saw was a greenish-yellow fog coming towards them at dusk and soon scores of hundreds of men were choking from it. Those who got away from the trenches were blinded or injured for life, and lines stretched for miles as each man followed the one in front to the hospitals behind the lines. Yes, war is a lamentable business, and it isn’t worth getting excited about, is it? IS IT, THEN, YOU PUTTY-HEADS?” he roared, his gun-burst lifting even the sleepiest from their daydreams.

  A few voices sent out a mixture of yes and no.

  “It’s hard to tell you what war is, but I can promise one thing: there’ll be plenty of pain flying about. I suppose the easiest pain I can think of in war is when you have to queue all day in the snow for food or coke, and when you have to eat horse flesh at the end of it, and when you have to listen to the noise of sirens. Not much pain there, is there? However, it’s possible that the war will still be on when you’re men, and one of the hardest pains perhaps is when one is left wounded after a battle without water or food. War is taking place in China and Spain at this moment, and happened in Abyssinia not so long ago, so what I’m telling you shouldn’t seem so impossible, though, judging by your faces, you aren’t bright enough to take in much of what I’m saying.”

  He knows we’re all waiting to get to the playground for our milk, Brian said to himself, but he’s keeping us in out of spite, the sly bastard. “Do any of you really know what pain is? I suppose you think it’s pain when my fist clouts your putty-heads to make you pay attention? Well, let me tell you, it’s not. It’s nothing to what pain is in war. Ah, yes, I know, you’re all excited about the gasmasks and the war that’s coming. Well, you should be praying to God that by a miracle it doesn’t begin. For war means nothing but pain. Some people escape it, but don’t let that be a comfort to you, because during a war the earth will convulse with pain, and it will get you and me and possibly everyone else. So let’s have no excitement over the thought of war.”